Hey friends! How is everyone doing today?! I am down here in Tampa working and somehow I managed to get SICK. Who gets a cold in FLORIDA? This girl. Yup. I am a stuffy, snotty, sneezy, sleepy mess of a person today. And work is non-negotiable. So since I’m stubborn as heck and don’t like to take medicine, I’m packing tissues and drinking a TON of coffee to get me prepped for this day.
Oh and speaking of coffee, you have yours… right?
Let’s take a sip together. Because it’s Thursday. And that’s just what we do on Thursdays. Except for last Thursday. When I was kind of a hot mess.
Also I have to admit I feel SO bad for not posting anything Tuesday but being out of town and traveling on Sunday (which is when I usually work on meal prepping & recipes) made it tough to get anything done for the blog.
But being here has kind of brought me to this realization. Because if I had really wanted to get something done, honestly, I could have.
I feel like I’m having some weird feelings toward blogging lately. I’m sure you guys can tell. I really haven’t been posting too much on here. And when I do it just feels a little rushed.
I tried to create a content calendar, I’ve been trying to step up my Instagram game, hoping to reignite this little flame inside me but right now it’s just a little flicker of light.
So I thought I would open up about this a little bit today and tell you guys all my blogging feels. Because if my blog was my boyfriend, right now we’d be having that talk like I think I need some space.
But I don’t want to break up. I’ve just been feeling a little unmotivated to really TRY the last couple of weeks.
You know what I mean?
Honestly so much of my frustration comes from how blogging has been evolving over the past few months. I get on Instagram now and I just feel like I’m looking at a magazine. With ads. And sponsored posts. And I don’t even see my friends on there anymore! You know what I mean?
My entire feed is BLOGGERS. And even as a blogger, I know this is like probably really uncool to say but it is really starting to annoy me.
I need a sip of coffee. I feel like that was bold to say.
But I really have no interest in seeing a blogger posing next to a roll of paper towels with the brand logo gleaming in the light and trying to make it look natural. Or seeing a style blogger trying on an outfit in a dressing room and linking the outfit for commission even though I want to scream I KNOW YOU AREN’T EVEN BUYING THAT!
So why does that even bother me so dang much?
Well because it makes me question the sacrifices it takes to blog all the time. Like the Sundays spent behind a computer screen instead of outside living life. Or the nights I barely even talk to Ben because IHAVETOPOSTOMG. Or the days I’m late for work because I had to get that photo justtttt rightttttt!
And it just makes me think…
Is this what I’m working so hard for? So I can promote paper towels and probiotics and open my mail on my Instagram story?
And I get it – you have to hustle and you have to get paid and you gotta do what you gotta do to pay the bills. I’m not judging. And I don’t do this for a living, so I don’t understand the pressures and stresses of being self-employed.
I’m just having some trouble seeing myself do the same thing.
It’s just something I’ve been kind of struggling with internally, and I didn’t want to talk about it out loud because I love my blog & I love writing & I love sharing ideas. And people have told me that I’ve inspired them to eat healthier or try a Whole 30 and that is SO meaningful to me!
But my Type A self is just having some trouble half-assing it. Because it feels like I’ve been running this marathon for almost two years and all that waits for me at the finish line is a Skinny Tea sponsorship or something.
(OBVIOUSLY I’m being dramatic)
Does this mean I’m done blogging?
I love it.
I am just letting you know why I haven’t been on my A-game lately. Because I feel like we’re friends and I felt like it was only right to let you know my thoughts.
With that being said.
I honestly feel a TON better being able to type this all out and get it off my chest. It really has been weighing on me.
And I’m not sure if I’ll have a new post for you next Tuesday but if an idea comes to me I absolutely will. I still have so much that I want to share.
Nowwww it’s time for you guys to tell me your thoughts on this.
Are you a blogger who also feels frustrated with “blogging”? Do you think I’m being a little harsh? Or have you never even noticed the things that bother me so much? Or are you a blog lover that also feels frustrated? Or are you a blog lover that loves it and think I’m mean?
Tell me everything!
I’m serious. I’m really hoping y’all don’t think I’m crazy.
Love you ALL & I hope you still love me too! Xoxoxoxo